I am Thankful

I am here having finished all the major treatment and a couple of weeks into Letrozole, yet I find it hard to make the changes in my life which I think may improve my cancer risks going forward. It is easy for me to blame others, but it really all falls back on me. I saw my oncologist last week, and he has made a referral for me to see Dr. Amy Shaw, who is new in the RRMG practice and is putting together a survivorship program. My hope is that the program will help me to make little changes in my diet and activity level to ward off this evil C from ever taking over again.

They say we are allowed to play the "cancer card" whenever we need it. And I'm finding that now that I am through with treatment, people "see" me as looking and feeling well, like everything is back to normal and full speed ahead. Sleeping till 9 to 10 am each morning tells me things are not back to normal. And preparing for my first mammogram in a couple of weeks also puts the fear back in me. Not to mention a dear friend, who has been breast cancer free for ten years,  may now have a recurrence.  That really puts the fear in me. Are we ever normal again? Maybe not. But we are stronger. AND we are here. I guess there is not much more we can ask for.

As another breast cancer warrior's oncologist reminded her, "She HAD cancer". There was no evidence of any more cancer in her body, like me. So.... I HAD cancer. And for that, I must be thankful.

Hugs,

Debbie... aka the cancer warrior ... AND SURVIVOR!!!

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I AM STRONG. I AM LOVED. I AM HEALTHY. WE WILL WIN!